Kahlua? Is that you?

I never know what to really write in these blogger things. Maybe what's been going on in my life lately perhaps?

Well, I don't know why, but lately i've been having dreams involving my old dog Kahlua. For those who don't know, Kahlua was my precious Chocolate lab puppy. She passed away January 17th, 2009 and at the time it wasn't too hard. Recently, it's gotten tougher.

Sure, she was a dog. But, I practically grew up with this dog. I remember picking her up on July 8th, 2000 (yes, I remember the date). It was a turning point in my life as well as my family's. She was a good dog, the most loyal dog you ever met. She was mischievious, that's for sure. But, you couldn't hate her because she was too adorable. She knew when you were sad- she'd rest her head on your lap and let you pet her. It was her way of knowing everything was going to be okay. She knew when she was in trouble- she'd duck down below the table to hide and act too cute for you to punish her. She knew when something was different- the house fire changed everything. She became a different dog- still loveable, but not the same. When thunder striked, she ran up to my room and jump on my bed. The only way she'd get to sleep was if we pet her to let her know we were there. It was like that until she died. She just wanted you to be there.

But, now she's gone. And for some reason, I can't get her out of my head. I fall asleep at night and instantly, there she is. She's back from the dead. Heck, she was never dead- that was a dream. But probably the wierdest thing about these dreams is, she's talking to me. Not really talking, but for some reason, it's like I can read her mind and hear her thoughts and she can do the same thing.

When I wake up of course, she's dead again. But when bedtime comes, she's alive. And I can hear her talking to me. She's trying to tell me something...

I don't know what it is. When I wake up, I forget the gist of the dream, only remembering she was there and we were communicating some way. I've had dreams like this before. I one time dreamt I was talking to a deceased classmate of mine not long after she died. It's definitely a wierd experience. I've dreamt of my grandmother a few times, but not many. But, every night for the past 3 weeks or so, Kahlua's been there, talking to me.

Maybe I'm going a little too deep here. Maybe I'm just feeling the void of not having a dog being by my side every night and just having someone to pet every now and then. But, a part of me thinks she's trying to tell me something. And I need to figure out what she's trying to tell me, or I'll never be able to let her go and move on...

Kahlua Kiss

May 11, 2000- January 17, 2009

I miss ya pups

Why I should live in SoCal

My closest friends know that the one place I would move to in a heartbeat is Southern California. And that's not recently, it's been that way since forever. I don't know why, maybe it was the glitz and glamour of Hollywood that got me started on Southern California. But, watching television and movies made me think Southern California was America's hotspot to live.

This past winter, I finally visited California, and loved it! Honestly, I wasn't sure I totally would, but now I know that it's the place to be. We went during the Rose Bowl, which sucked a little because it was crazy crowded, but overall, it was great!

Here are my reasons to why I should live in Southern California, or "SoCal"

REASON #1: Disneyland Rocks!

Disneyland is not a far drive from Los Angeles, and it's pretty sweet. By living there, I can go whenever I want and during the least crowded times of year, e.g. not during the Rose Bowl or summer. Plus, the Downtown Disney area is great. It has the Rainforest Cafe and the World of Disney, perfect for gifts for my family. And, the Matterhorn! I mean, come on!!! You can seriously climb this thing if you wanted!

REASON #2: Name-dropping

It doesn't matter who you are: if you ever met someone famous or saw someone famous, you would drop their name at a party automatically. Come on, we all do it. And by living in SoCal, the possibility of name-dropping is sky high. For example, on the Universal Studios tour, Anthony Anderson (Kangaroo Jack, Law & Order) was right next to me! And, Christopher Lloyd (Back to the Future) and John Goodman (Big Lebowski, Monster's Inc.) actually talked to us after their show in the Kodak Theatre! Yes, it's a true story, ask any LHSGB member who went on that trip. So, if I ever came back to PA, I could name drop! And who knows, maybe I could be the one being name dropped!

REASON #3: 90210 and Rodeo Drive

For a girl who loves designer trends and the high style of living, Beverly Hills is where I want to be! The most famous zip code in the world and the most expensive road in the world combined are awesome. The best shopping, the best homes, the best weather, all in one place. All my favorites are here, and the homes are wonderful. For a girl who is truly a princess, this is where she should live...

REASON#4: HOLLYWOOD!

Sure, Hollywood is nowhere near what it used to be. To be honest, Hollywood can be downright scary at nighttime. But, Hollywood is where stars are made and born. There is so much to do there, so much to see. So much nightlife and fun times all around. So much history is buried there too: The Max Factor Building, The Walk of Fame, Hollywood & Vine; it's all there. All those places we hear about right at your fingertips. And even if Hollywood isn't what I dreamed it would be, it still the place where dreams are made of.

REASON #5: The beauty

It's easy to forget that this area of California is nestled in a Valley. And the mountains are just so beautiful! Sure, there's smog, but California is known for it's beautiful landscapes, and that holds true even in Los Angeles. Outside of LA, there are the majestic mountains and peaceful beaches that make you feel truly at home.

So that's why I want to live in California. The opportunities there are endless and I think I would be well-suited to live there. And, the weather is GOOD all year round! Seriously, I went there for Christmas and wore flip-flops! California is where I want to be, and one day I'm going to live there. One day...

I'll give this a try (re-published)

I love to blog. I don't know why, there's just something fulfilling about writing about myself. Is that a bad thing?

My friends know I like to talk... a lot! And wriing has come naturally to me over the past few years thanks to my wonderful years of instruction in the BASD. And now, being at Penn State has definitely made it better.

So, I'll quickly write a few things about myself. My name is Tibby, I'm a sophomore at Penn State University majoring currently in Journalism, but I am planning to switch to Public Relations. I think it's best for me, considering I wasn't thrilled with the aspects of journalism at the Daily Collegian...

I usually reside in the little town of Bethlehem, PA, known as Christmas City USA. So yeah, Christmas in Bethlehem is a big deal. Brittany, my roomie, compared it to Independence Day in Philly. It's a lot bigger than I see it being. Sure, you have the pretty lights and trees and holiday spirit, but it's just something that happens. And believe me, we have a bigger turnout during Musikfest than during Christmas. At least in my opinion...

I like Bethlehem. It's a great city. See, you've got the small town aspect of living in Bethlehem, but in actuality, Bethlehem is one of the biggest cities in PA! I live in the suburbs of Bethlehem, which I love! Although citylife seems a lot more interesting than the humble burbs. But, I love my home. My family and I unfortunately had a house fire back in '07 and couldn't live there for 6 months! It sucked, but now our home is our dream home, and we still have each other. We lost our precious puppy Kahlua earlier this year to cancer which was tough and still is though.

My brothers are in high school. Tyler is a SENIOR at Liberty High, Thomas is a SOPHOMORE like me, except in high school. I can't believe my brother is a senior though! It's crazy! It's funny, he already has this huge graduation trip planned out. He told me he wants 2 weeks down in Disney, and we could go to Universal for a few days. And we're staying in the Contempoary in Disney. Of course, 2 weeks in a hotel? I'm like: NO! Although I enjoyed my stays at the Contempoary and love my family, 2 weeks in a hotel room is not going to do!

But, that's a long way away. And the problem with that trip is that it depends a little bit on what I will be doing. Like, will I be in London? Or will I be at some internship? Or a deadbeat job? If I had it my way, I would be interning at some firm in Los Angeles, but I doubt my parents would be thrilled with me out in California by myself. I do have family out there, albeit I've never met them, but they are there. And we are facebook friends, so that's a start!

I, of course, have to get through my sophomore year first. I'm not even done with my first week of classes and I'm overwhelmed. I said before lots of studying, I mean it. Statistics, History, Social Psych, Newswriting, and Meteorology. Seem not too bad, but trust me, these classes will kill me. Homecoming week will kill me too, and it shouldn't!

And then, there's the football season coming up, which I am stoked about! I love football, and Penn State is all about football! The first game isn't until NEXT weekend, so this weekend will probably be very chill. I have no idea what I'll be doing, but hopefully something good. Especially now that I found a store downtown that sells designer things. I love Juicy, Coach, katespade, all that stuff, so having them in a store is bad news bears!

Well, I think that was a lot of writing for one night. Nothing essentially important. Will close with sadness to the passing of the great Sen. Ted Kennedy. I hope he rests in peace humbly.